Upsets and Cinderella runs

With Loyola losing to Michigan, it ends there like a Cinderella run. It kind of makes me angry, just a little bit with them losing. Like if my kid walks in into the corner of a table or the couch, should I be angry with myself? Or do I just say walk it off kid? It’s a tough choice. Either way you’re stuck with calming your child down and hiding the tears from your wife. Because lets face it, if you fuck up, you might die.

Moving on from that baby stage to that toddler stage can be big a problem. They become little people, with personalities. My kid touches everything, licks everything, and gets mad at me for no reason. It’s more of sports agent at this point. Trying to understand what they want, but they cant really express that due to a lack of words. “Like dad I want more of this and need more attention.” Can you imagine if Odell Beckham Jr. was like “hey coach, I want the franchise tag?” But could express it through moans, groans and angry fits. Oh wait; NY giants could trade him with that attitude. Oh, Dez Bryant, what now?

When I come home from work, I’m tired. I have one rule that I was to obey by. Pick up your kid no matter what. My dad did it, so now I do it. No matter how tired I am. I always pick up the kid. I know it can be shitty at work, but when you come home remember that there’s a kid that loves you no matter what. It’s sad that some people don’t really pay that much attention to their children. Get off the fucking phone, Facebook isn’t going anywhere, Instagram don’t give a fuck about you.

If you didn’t become what you want, or who want, there’s time, trust me. It is never to late to become a better dad, person, lover or just overall person. Just put practice in. It’ll pay off. Look at Cleveland Cavs, looking good for the playoffs, and Yankees looking good too. Just keep your head down and grind it out. You’ll always be a superstar to your kid. You may never have gotten to be an all star, MVP or even medal at anything. Parenting doesn’t give participation medals, it’s either be good, or be shitty. Don’t fuck up when its time to show up. Just keep showing up and grinding. If you got to get help to get you there find it and use it. Either way I love being a dad and the adventure is always up and down. But damn, it’s damn rewarding.

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Speaking My Language

Dealing with a kid that is learning crawl and stand up is busy. Between her and the dog, I have started to feel like I have become a goalie and chasing them both. One is in the dog water and other eating the leftover crackers. My favorite word lately is “No”. The wife can drop that word on dime, and then I get to watch a 10 month old crawl away and act like she didn’t do it. We also started to use sign language when telling her No. I mostly just say no, when I don’t want to do anything.

I have hearing lost, and I wear hearing aids. Which I am trying to wear a lot more, but at the same time I just forget to wear them. I have had hearing lost since I was a little kid. That’s reason why we as family are using sign language around the house. My biggest fear is that I’ll go completely deaf, and not have a way to communicate with my family.  It’s been interesting trying to learn a language that acquires for your hands. About 80 percent of the time I feel like I’m flipping gang signs.

When my daughter was born, I was hoping she didn’t have any hearing related problems. I honestly wasn’t prepared if she was. Then one day I was like “What the fuck Troy, if you can get through it. So can she.” I was treating it like it was a handicap, instead of thinking that it wasn’t.

I’m slowing learning sign language. It has been difficult to remember to talk and use sign together. Simple things like saying yes and no. I forget to use them or I don’t enforce it.  So I’ve been trying to keep a consistent reminder to use it. YouTube has been the biggest help. There are a lot of resources out there if you want to learn baby sign. The word love in sign has been my favorite. I also do enjoy swearing at people when I get mad, but honestly they have no idea on what I’m saying. It looks I’m just some strange dude playing with his hands. It’s been awesome watching my daughter starting to recognize sign.

Here’s a link that helped me:

http://www.babysignlanguage.com/